October 2011
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Really... not in a good headspace right now.
I can’t stop thinking things like:
- “I deserve to be sexually abused.”
- “I deserve all the pain I’m in right now.”
- “I should cut.”
- “I should just stop eating, because I’m so ugly and huge.”
- “I’m a horrible person and there’s no escaping that fact.”
I hate it. I hate the thoughts, I hate how...
A Lesson Shared:
krisatan:
A man sat in the audience and cracked a joke. Everyone laughed. After a moment, he cracked the same joke again.This time, less people laughed. He cracked the same joke again and again. Until there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled and said: You can’t laugh at the same joke again and again, but why do you keep crying over the same thing over and over again?
Hmm, an interesting...
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"Bah, humbug" - day 14 in retrospect.
I realized that I’ve been falling off the wagon a bit lately, so to speak, re: staying positive. So here I am, back with my bah humbug moments!! :D
Yesterday was a pretty good day. Here is my list of good things. XD
I went to the Girl Scouts meeting for the first time. The Cadets (6th graders) really need a second adult for a coleader so I’m thinking about doing that. Yesterday...
“Never compare your symptoms to others. Never compare your scars, never compare...”
– (via creatingaquietmind)
Take a moment to breathe, just be, & tell yourself...
“I [Jesus] know those moods when you sit there utterly alone, pining, eaten up...”
– John of Landsburg, 16th Century (via cierabgardner)
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Introspection ahoy.
Feeling really low tonight, once I actually let myself feel it. Am in a lot of pain and also just got kinda hit with memories of the past, which - sadly - are hurting quite a lot emotionally.
I was going to study abroad in Russia during fall semester, 2006. But I had a mental breakdown in the spring semester, for whatever reasons, and was hospitalized twice that May due to suicidality. I also...
Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this.
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
Just in case. You never know who might need it.
So anxious right now...
…like dying from anxiety. This is not cool. I did not say that this was okay. And it’s not okay. It will be okay, but it’s not okay right now… which is okay, I suppose, since things don’t need to be okay all the time but still. It sucks. I’m typing because that’s like… one of the few things I can still do that releases the nervous energy that...
