November 2011
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About eating disorders & me.
May be triggering, is under a cut for a reason. :)
Tonight my husband told me that I’m too heavy to sit on his lap. I feel so disgusting. So huge. So nasty. And yet I’m “not allowed” to stop eating. I want to purge, I feel so awful inside about this. I’ve struggled with my eating disorder for 7 years, 7 freaking long and frustrating years, and it STILL comes...
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I did it!! I hit 50,056 words today for NaNo. ...
I’m extra super psyched because I totally didn’t think I could do it, and I totally proved myself to be wrong. xD
So yes. I am proud of myself. Take THAT, poor self esteem!!!
(Note: my novel is not close to being done yet. It’s at 65 pages single spaced and I’m just starting to wrap up ONE of the plot lines… it’s going to take awhile to get it...
“When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that...”
– Cherokee Proverb (via himynameisersum)
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This Thanksgiving...
…I am thankful for a lot of things. Some of these things include:
the help of my parents so Jarrod & I can keep living in our apartment
hope for the future
faith that things will turn out okay
a medication that my body is not rejecting that is actually helping with the fibro pain (Lyrica)
friends to whom I can talk about my life, who don’t judge me based on my appearance or...
Don't ever hesitate. Always reblog this. This...
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
Crisis Chat Online: www.crisischat.org
Happy Thanksgiving to those celebrating.
What are some things for which you’re thankful?
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Just curious...
…but have you ever wondered why people who don’t follow Christ find it so necessary to attack Christianity? Whether they’ve never been Christ-followers, whether they’ve started to “deconvert” and try and find a different spiritual path that “works better for them,” whether they’re simply not spiritual at all… why attack Christianity?
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I'm trying to be patient...
…but I’m really quite impatient. For what? I’m not sure, exactly. For my life to change. And I know it won’t change unless I’m proactive about it, ‘cause since when did stuff happen when you just sit around without doing anything? (Well, entropy is a totally different concept… XD) I just… need to figure out what to do. And how to do it. I know...
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Blah.
I’m feeling… I don’t know. A little uptight, anxious, bored, exhausted, frustrated, overwhelmed, worried, stressed…
…I really just want to go lie in bed and forget about life for awhile. That would be ideal. ‘Cause you know, I’m not a very huge fan of life at the moment. :( I’m not accomplishing anything with mine and I see no way to do so. My...
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Doot doot doot...
Well, I’m over 31k words for NaNo now. :> I don’t really feel all that inspired this morning, though, which is a bummer ‘cause I wish I were. :| Ah well, I’m sure I will be able to write some today somehow - yesterday I used WoW as a reward. Every 300 words I could play WoW for 10 minutes (or so), which is enough time to do a quest or two or, if it’s a little...
10 Things I've Learned from Living with Chronic... →
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1. Getting all of the rest that I need does not make me lazy. Even when I’m not moving, my body is expending a huge amount of energy on powering its overactive immune system, and on defending itself from the subsequent pain and inflammation. So while many times it might look like I’m not doing much, I’m still probably doing more than most others.
2. No matter how much it...
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"Bah, humbug" - day 19.
Haven’t done one of these posts in awhile, so here we go again. :> This will be for the past few days since there has been a lot of good stuff that ought to be recognized. XD
My husband got accepted to the local university. He’s going to be taking just gen eds the first semester but that’s okay, he’s in and we’re both super excited!! Stupid Student loans up the...
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Where have I been? >_>
Sorry for not updating for awhile. Well, actually, I don’t know if anyone actually reads my text posts but whatever. ;) I write mostly for my own benefit.
I guess I’ve just wanted things to be more positive when I updated next… but sadly, things haven’t changed. Job hunting has begun, but no luck there. We’re not sure if we can live on what my parents can afford...
