September 2011
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"Bah, humbug" - day 5.
Well, today’s been a weird day. But I guess it’s been an okay day?
Good things about today include… I got the sleep that I needed last night thanks to Silenor. I hate taking sleeping meds but man, I’m glad I have them for those nights when my brain just won’t shut off.
I’m also grateful for the friends that I do have and for the ability to text with a lot of...
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Name: April Gender: Female Height: 5’6” Orientation: Straight Age: 23 Eye Color: Golden brown Hair Color: Dark brown, almost black, with natural red “highlights” Smoking?: No Drinking?: No Drugs?: No Job: n/a Education Level: Psychology degree (bachelor’s) Favorite Sport: Tennis, racquetball, gymnastics, figure skating, ballet. Favorite Color: Purple or black. Favorite...
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"Bah, humbug" - day 4.
Today started off well, in that I didn’t feel like (m)any of my spoons were used. However, by this afternoon, a nap was in order and I felt like I’d overdone it… again.
But… at least I could rest when I needed to, instead of needing to continue forcing my body to be alert and awake. This is a huge thing that I always try to recognize and something for which I always try...
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"Bah, humbug" - day 3.
Today has been a bit eh since I’ve needed to rest a lot due to overdoing it the past few days, but my positive thing for today is that I got to go to a booksale and buy (lots of) books. XD If you know me, you’ll know that there’s little else that makes me as happy as a good booksale. :) Especially when it’s supporting our local library, and especially when it’s...
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"Bah, humbug" - day 2.
I got to have some very good time with my best friend. We talked and hung out and had cappucino brownies that she made, and went to Walmart to find a moon chair (no luck although I could’ve sworn they had them there last time I went, sometime last week). It was a blast and… yeah. :) I’m so glad to have her in my life. We’ve been best friends for 14 years and we’ve...
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"Bah, humbug."
Lately it’s been coming to my attention more & more that I focus so much on the negative parts of my life, & not so much the positive. To that end, I am going to try and post at least one good thing here every day, whether it’s in general or about my life in particular.
Right now I’m struggling with chest-crushing anxiety (or so it feels), since I forgot to take my meds...
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Feeling down...
I’m trying to fight it, I really am. I hate how one person’s perception of me, although incorrect, can hurt so much. :( I wish I didn’t want everyone to like me.
Positive things* that I can think of, since I want to get the focus off me and my issues:
I can get my lip ring soon - maybe today, maybe tomorrow - instead of the stud that’s far too long now that the swelling...
dont ever hesitate. reblog this.
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
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I could really use some encouragement. I don't...
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So... yeah.
I think I have just had two fibro flares in less than 5 days. First one hit on Thursday from doing too much, second one hit yesterday from being overly stressed. I’m in so much physical pain right now, and emotional too, as I can see some of my dreams crumbling. I really need to get fibro under the best control that I can. :(
I’m quitting my job as a nanny. I just can’t take...
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“Sleep is a daily reminder from God that we are not God. Once a day God sends us...”
– John Piper (http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/taste-see-articles/a-brief-theology-of-sleep) (via i-am-dawn)
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Hmm.
I think since I’m in a lot of pain & not in such a great mood today, due to the fibro flare (stupid me for doing too much, but I guess I should allow myself a little grace since I am still learning my limits), I’m going to post a list of positive things. I encourage you to do the same!! :D
Jarrod. I mean obviously, he’s got to top the list since he’s my earthly rock...
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I just wanted to let my followers know that I'm...
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It's National Chronic Invisible Illness Awareness...
…so I thought I’d post this. It’s roughly what I posted on Facebook but I’m going to focus on fibro more than bipolar II/EDNOS/anxiety, since that’s more predominant these days.
1. The illness I live with is:
fibromyalgia (most likely - some chronic pain condition at the very least)
bipolar II, anxiety (social/generalized), EDNOS.
2. I was diagnosed with it in...
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*big yawn*
I am so tired.
And major deja vu. Weird.
I don’t go into work til noon today so I’m kind of feeling a little… wonky, since the day didn’t start like I was expecting it to (I got the text late yesterday, which made me go “yey” since I could sleep in [although I didn’t/couldn’t] but I didn’t have a lot of time to adjust to that idea). I mean,...
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*flops*
In. So. Much. Pain.
I thought I’d be useful & go grocery shopping today. However, all of the lifting/carrying of bags of groceries, not to mention a few 2 liter bottles of diet soda… my back is in agony and what do I want to do? I want to CLEAN.
Yes. I must be insane. I have the mental energy to go clean but I am in so much physical pain - or will be, as it’s abating...
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In pain. Discouraged. But... I keep going. No...
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In so much pain. So discouraged. That is all.
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Roaaaar.
Today has been one of the quietest days I’ve had in a long time. Got up at 3:45am so was pretty exhausted most of the morning, which is how I’m justifying all the lazyresting/dozing I did. :) Guess it’s good I didn’t go to work since I was so out of it (and still feel out of it, to be honest).
I did go to the library, though, and… yeah. :D I now have checked out...
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Recovery is hard. But believe me when I say it is...
One of the people I follow is struggling with this, & I’m not going to name her, but it put into my mind… why not make a post on this? It might be helpful to others.
When I was really sick, my problems were my identity. I was a cutter, an anorexic (I identified with that even though I’m “only” diagnosed with EDNOS, since I met most of the criteria for anorexia...
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So today...
Ugh. I am so, so tired.
But I got my hair cut. :D It looks nice (at least, I think so) but always does the day my hairdresser does it, because she washes it and dries it and straightens it. :)
(^ *snicker* is the caption under it on Facebook)
These were taken with my phone’s camera since my digital camera somehow died a tragic death while taking photos of my hair. >:| Sooo yeah. ...
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I think I need to follow more christians on...
zerobeeeeeatz:
It’s really amazing how many people reblog posts like these. It’s like we are all connected :)
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Today has been a frustrating sort of day.
(And yes, I will get to the posts about exercise & sleep at some point, just not right now.)
Today’s been… well, yeah, frustrating. Work was okay, although I’m surprised I got through it without freaking out. As soon as the baby woke up this morning, she spit up on me, and as an emetophobe, not freaking out is like… totally amazing, haha. And then a little after...
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Healthy eating, part 2.
There were some things that I forgot to mention in my last post when it comes to healthy eating. Now, if only I could remember them… haha.
Well, here are a few things.
Allow yourself to have a break from your “diet.” Especially if you’re changing the way you eat drastically, it’s going to be difficult for you to not “go black or white.” When I say...
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Think about this for a bit... →
bearyourcross:
Ex-murderers, ex-rapists, thieves, pot heads, crack addicts, self loathing people, conceited people, people who have been raped, people who have had a bad father or mother (or both) figure, poor people, foreign people, homosexuals, atheists, Christians, false Christians,…
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If you're interested...
I just started a blog on my spiritual walk with Christ.
http://givinghimtheglory.tumblr.com
It’s going to be more focused on that than this one is, although I have no doubt I’ll mention God in here at times. This blog is more focused on health issues and related, and I thought why not make a separate blog for God-related things. Not necessarily because those things should always be...
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Eating disorder behind, healthy life ahead......
Okay, so… starting off this post with honesty. I have not done everything that I’m going to write about, but I will tell you what I have done, what I haven’t done, and what has worked for me out of the things I have done. I also don’t feel good about myself 100% of the time, and I do have days where I just feel like a pile of crap on the floor, but I still know that even...
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Getting really frustrated...
…at what some people can’t seem to grasp.
Thinspo, thinspiration, whatever you call it… yeah, it is porn to you if you look at it religiously and lust after having a body like what is shown in the pictures. And okay, so maybe you want to look like that. Fine. I can’t change your mind and make you see that you’re beautiful the way you are. But I can tell you that...
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Early morning thoughts... blah?
Well, apparently I was tired enough to sleep pretty much from 7pm last night until 6am today. \o/ Yey for catching up on sleep!!
Pain isn’t horribad today… yet. I can’t help but stick that “yet” on there although I’m gonna keep hoping that I’m not going to be in pain today, at least not like I have been the past few days. :< That pain was really...
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Why anger, why?
I’m so frustrated. :( And angry.
Angry rantypants stuff under the read more cut thingy. But on the upside, I may have a doctor that will treat fibro. He needs a referral from my GP and then he’ll decide based on the case, sooo please keep your fingers crossed and if you’re a praying sort, keep me covered in prayer. I’m really hoping this works out.
Also, about the...
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Roar?
Today has been a good day, I think. This far, anyway.
I didn’t sleep well last night - well, I lie, I did after I managed to FALL asleep, haha. But that was after midnight, so I let my employers know I wouldn’t be able to come in today, and it turns out I have Monday off as well, so yey. Not that I mind working with the kids, but it’s nice to have some time off, especially...
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Why is it...
…that “weightloss blogs” are mostly full of thinspo and tips for doing eating disordered things?
This is why I am not actively seeking out “weightloss blogs” on Tumblr (or other blogging sites, for that matter). It’s because the majority of them are NOT weightloss blogs. They’re blogs on how to get sick, be sick, and stay sick, and I don’t need...
