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krabkrust: seblaine: circletines: IF YOU SAY THE WORD BATTERIES REALLY FAST IT SOUNDS LIKE YOURE...

Fri, 24 May 2013 20:39:24 -0400

seblaine:

circletines:

IF YOU SAY THE WORD BATTERIES REALLY FAST IT SOUNDS LIKE YOURE SAYING “PARIS” IN A FRENCH ACCENT

WORD OF WARNING THIS ONLY WORKS IF YOU HAVE AN AMERICAN ACCENT IF NOT YOU WILL JUST SIT IN YOUR ROOM LIKE A KNOB SAYING BATTERIES

It sounded like i was saying ‘PATRICE’ in a french accent to be fair

In a Minnesotan accent it just sounds like my husband is saying “batteries” really fast. Therefore, Minnesota is not a part of America? :O

So… an update. I have not been feeling very well GI-wise for the past… 2-3 months? ish?...

Fri, 24 May 2013 20:36:26 -0400

So… an update. I have not been feeling very well GI-wise for the past… 2-3 months? ish? so finally today, I went to an appointment with a GI doc since my Celiac’s panel of bloodwork came back abnormal. The GI doc was super awesome, very kind, thorough, gentle… excellent bedside manner, even better than my GP. More about GI stuff under the read more thingamabob cuz I don’t want to gross too many of y’all out.

Apparently I have the entire gambit of upper and lower GI tract problems, running from heartburn to nausea to cramps to diarrhea to blood in the stool (which is a new thing, just started happening in the past 3 days - just in time, I sez). Anyway. So after asking a lot of questions, he had me go schedule for an upper endoscopy and a colonoscopy.

I’m pretty sure most of y’all know what a colonoscopy is, and if you don’t, you can probably guess by the name. But an endoscopy - I didn’t know what that was until just a few days ago. It’s when they stick a scope down your esophagus and into your stomach/upper small intestine for purposes of looking around or possibly taking a biopsy of the small intestine (or so my sources have said).

The colonoscopy is because of the diarrhea and the blood in the stool. He wants to rule out Crohn’s and/or colitis. The endoscopy is for everything else. He wants to see how bad the heartburn is (I think he said?) and see if he can see a cause for the nausea, as well as taking a peek at my upper small intestine to see if I have Celiac’s disease.

Because I am on Klonopin, I will have to go under general anaethesia rather than the normal IV drugs they give, because of the drug interactions (the Klonopin can cause the IV drug they use to make me MORE awake rather than sleepy). This is scheduled for exactly 3 weeks from today, and please… pray that they find SOMETHING. I don’t want Crohn’s, I don’t want colitis, I don’t want Celiac’s, but I also don’t want to go through all of this and have it inexplicable. Because I am SICK OF BEING SICK. :( And sick of relying on Zofran to keep me from puking. And just sick of feeling like crap every time I eat or don’t eat or want to eat.

Okay, I’m done for now. I realize that was kinda long, but it’s been a doozy of a day and I’m tired and rambly and I still need to get supper and meds but it’s 8:30pm and I don’t wanna. Gah. :|

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50you50me: An adorable desert fox walking against the wind in...

Thu, 23 May 2013 07:19:13 -0400

50you50me:

An adorable desert fox walking against the wind in Morocco.

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friendly reminder that: you are not weak if you want meds for your disorder you are not weak if you...

Thu, 23 May 2013 07:14:03 -0400

friendly reminder that:

you are not weak if you want meds for your disorder

you are not weak if you relapse once

you are not weak if you relapse a thousand times

you are not weak if some kinds of therapy don’t work for you

you are not weak if some kinds of meds don’t work for you

you are not weak if you have a mental disorder.

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Thu, 23 May 2013 07:13:33 -0400

healthystephy: food doesn’t need a thousand health benefits to justify eating it

Thu, 23 May 2013 07:13:17 -0400

healthystephy:

food doesn’t need a thousand health benefits to justify eating it

"We rely upon the poets, the philosophers, and the playwrights to articulate what most of us can only..."

Thu, 23 May 2013 07:13:00 -0400

““We rely upon the poets, the philosophers, and the playwrights to articulate what most of us can only feel, in joy or sorrow. They illuminate the thoughts for which we only grope; they give us the strength and balm we cannot find in ourselves. Whenever I feel my courage wavering, I rush to them. They give me the wisdom of acceptance, the will and resilience to push on.””

- Helen Hayes (via wordpainting)

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"Be grateful. These feelings, no matter how painful, are part of living. Today, we are alive—not..."

Thu, 23 May 2013 07:09:33 -0400

“Be grateful. These feelings, no matter how painful, are part of
living. Today, we are alive—not anesthetized, not sedated, not passed
out. Take control of your feelings and through action you can change.
Today, as every day of sober living, we have a choice.”

- Ann D. Clark (via 2000milesfromhere)

amo-amavi:

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amo-amavi: